Day 34 - Dear Food

Dear Food,

I never thought this day would come, but our relationship is over. I have recently been thinking about all the good times we've shared over the years, and now I see it was all a facade. Every time I would feel stressed, overwhelmed, angry, sad, happy (let's face it any excuse to be with you I took) and I would instantly run to have you embrace me. Your sugary sweetness, your delicious saltiness, all of you, all the time. You never really made me felt better, and after spending a prolonged period of time I saw that you only made me feel worse about myself.

I am over you. I know that we will be friends, and spend a healthy amount of time together, in healthy doses. It feels good to be free of you Food. I will use my new found independence to help other people get over you too.

Sincerely your former lover,
Carey

We all have our issues, don't you?

In the past I would walk down the street quietly cursing (under my breath) every woman that had a body type that I wished I had. "Man, I would kill for those thighs, abs, etc". I am always looking at myself in pictures or when I dress myself thinking "Bleh, I hate my _____". I know I'm not the only one that thinks this. In fact, I know that pretty much every woman has their issue area. Even if it's something as simple as "I hate my curly hair" or "I hate this little dimple when I smile". We ALL have our issues. Even if you wish that you were this girl or that, she secretly wishes that she had your eye color, hair type, toe placement, whatever.

So after carefully switching back and forth from my "before" to my "after" picture, all I saw was all the flaws. I could see the change a little, but more I saw what I needed to work on. It's funny because if this were any of my friends I would be telling them how amazing they look (and they do), but because it's me all I want to do is be negative about it. I will admit, that I am only human.

I know this blog wasn't particularly motivating, but I wanted you to see that although I am really proud of myself for all that I have accomplished, I know that I have a ways to go. I am realistic, and I know I can do it!

It's About Time!

I am transferring from one blog to another. I have been for the last 11 weeks participating in Equilibrium Fitness (San Luis Obispo, CA) Transformation Challenge. Whew, that was wordy. Knowing that this 12 week program is quickly coming to an end I decided that I would continue blogging my journey. If you want to hear about the other 10 weeks, please check out http://studiofitnessforwomen.blogspot.com/.

I know that without this outlet I will lose some motivation for my ever continuing goal to get healthy. Now, in this blog I will also be sharing my life experiences with everything. I think that mental health is a HUGE part of feeling good. Feel good on the inside and the outside. So I have already been starting my journey to make myself feel good on the outside. The inside might be somewhat of a larger challenge. Baby steps.

And as a sports psychologist who spoke to us at the gym said, "Take it one day at a time". I know this also the theme of AA. But I think it's great for just about anything, don't you? I am only going to get one day better each day. I am only going to succeed if I keep working toward my goals.

Thank you for reading or continuing to read on about my journey!